Walking on Egg Shells

You can do it! The grocery store isn't your enemy , it's just a test of your stregnth, and we already know you are strong, so try and buy lots of fruit and veggies and other good healthy things that way if u do binge it's on good food, good luck!

Ray

I have a freind that is also has this issue. It is a very tuff disease and i comment you for working so hard. What i noticed with my freind is that if she ate a little something everry hour, she was not purging, have you tried this? It works wonderful for her. Each day is a battle and God looks over you to make it another day

Thank you Country girl. I am always open to ideas. It's two thirty pm here. I am in the drivers seat. I can rein it in today!
May you get all you deserve this weekend.

Thanks Ray,
That is my plan. I do believe there are no good or bad foods, still in these early days I need to take care of myself. I don't need to practice on foods that are junk, I know I can have them but not on my shelves right now.

So far so good for me too this Friday, I wish I was guilt free. I binged/purged last night and felt weak this morning but have been strong so far today. I went to the grocery store about hour ago planning on getting food for a binge but talked myself out of getting anything! I loaded up on healthier choices and was so proud of myself and feel good now. Sometimes I get so anxious and distracted... it just becomes easier to say yes, just this one last time. I am tired of telling myself that, it never is the last time! I too will digest what I ingest and eat mindfully today.

I like the idea about eating more frequently... sometimes that has helped me in the past. I will try that today so I don't go crazy.

Dtoday,
Boy did I ever need to read your post. I am sitting with a binge. I am so scared I will end up gaining lots of weight. I am afraid I am not recovering but just trading in bulimia for binge eating disorder. Oh shoot.
Your right that this one last time will just bleed into tomorrow. I don't want to but I guess I am going to hold another binge in with the faith that this is the road to my recovery.
thank you

its saturday, how did you both make out last night... Im cheering for you. I wanna smoke really bad but im holding onto the both of you making the strong choice.. do it

Countrygirl,
I woke up about an hour ago. It was a rough night but the silver lining I didn't purge. I full on binged, while I was doing it I picked up the pace because I was sure I was going to purge. Then I just didn't. I remembered how hard it was to stop the purging, and all that goes along with full on bulimia. I gave myself the gift of patience. It SUCKS, but I have faith that I need to stop the purging first.
I am not free of fat fears. In all honesty I am the perfect size for me right now, I am slender but not boney, so moderate meals and exercise is all I need to be balanced. Still in me lies a big old fattest, I don't like being overweight but today it's more important to be free from the bulimia than to take the short cut to a flat stomach.
Last night I went to an art reception and hid my swollen belly under my coat. I was so crabby and judged my community. I know it was because I felt bad about myself. Again, part of the process. I would rather be magically free of all symptoms and spring on the social scene with confidence and friendly thoughts. Alas I am going through a process that might cause some moods, but nothing like bulimia.
Anyway thanks for asking... I am still proud, grateful, and committed to recovery from bulimia, and recovering a zest for this precious life we have.
Namaste

Thanks for asking Countrygirl, I did not purge last night! I am sending my support to you to stay smoke free.. just get past a minute/hour etc until you are past your temptation.

Begin, I was so happy to read your post saying that you needed to read my post. That helps so much, to know that I helped someone rather than hurt myself... I had mini binge on healthy food and was oh so tempted to give in to a purge but didn't. I made it and actually went to bed early and woke up on new day. Your post and CG's support will help me today. I hope you do okay today dealing with your fat fears, for me I feel that am a tiny overweight although I'm not sure I'm objective. I lost a significant amount lbs this past fall and that is when I relapsed back into the bulimia. I have struggled with it for 10 years with long periods of abstinence but it has always been there. Now the bulimia has helped me put on at least a couple lbs. It is not even good solution! I too worry about the binging... I wrote in my journal a lot last night that I realized that was my issue. It is the mindless eating I am addicted to; not as much the purging. That is just my thinking I will have no consequences. But there is consequences to my body and especially my mind..

oh girls i am so glad that you both did so well last night. ya know my friend always tried to hide her belly also...but honestly when she went on her binge there wasnt a notice change of her belly, I really tried to explain that to her, that i seen nothing. See on another note i fight with being overweight. Alot has to do with massive water retention and Polycyclemia, wich Is me overproducing red blood cells. So realize that most can not see the difference in belly weight. Whatever support you may need feel free to Private message me. Tommarrow is the lords day. Thank him for giving you another day of not purging. Im praying for you both