This is getting real.

beginagainandagain
Hi sweetie congrats I know how hard it is to get through even one day without BP and just focusing on one day at a time is great! you have made great strides and you have shown yourself that you do not need to PB and let this build your confidence in yourself! Your strength and commitment are soooo admirable! Also what struck me from your posts is your decision everyday to eat and digest your meals. I also used this technique and it really works for me (18 days without acting on ed symptoms). I rationalized things down to a simple choice. Am I going to eat today or am I not going to eat today? Recovery has only stuck when I realized it came down to a choice that I was making for myself. Every morning I get up and look at myself in the mirror (just my face) and say to myself despite how I am feeling that I am going to eat today no matter what! Even though things get very hard sometimes it does get easier to make that choice as you build yourself back up and things start falling into place again!

Keep the Hope and Great work - Fight for it - Life is soooo worth it - I am here for you!
Take care of you
fizzle1

Great Job, keep on pushin !!!!

thankyou for this message, i have completed a day without starving or vomiting or binging today, and i want to remain strong more than anything. however i just ate dinner and had to come on this site because i feel the automatic need to be sick. so im sitting here telling myself all the reasons why i cant, one of them now being that i want to join you tomorrow night by saying that i too have done two days and feel like its going to really happen, its also silly because i dont even want to loose anymore weight but its just an absalute compulsion.
good luck with tomorrow!! x

Fizzle,
You are very cool. I love the window into what works for you. I wish you another day of freedom.
Gotta go....
Countrygirl,
Thanks for the encouragement. You probably know how great feedback is.
Have a super day/

Georgina,
How cool to sit down here before you purge. Let's make it three day.
May you find the strength that lives inside all of us..no exceptions!

Three o'clock.
Like I've said before, it's not a certain food that sets me off, it's a way of eating. It's minutes after school (I am a teacher) and all the little bothers and fears of the day are making me so sensitive. I could easily start binging. Instead I will log off and go do some sane exercise with a supportive friend.
Next hurdle...dinner and evening alone. Stay tuned.
PS
I'm going to be fine thanks to all of you....

4:30
Work out done. We did a pretty lazy one, but at least we moved. Just like I am in little danger of restricting, over exercising was a younger me's game.
Anyway I know write but i hope I keep it positive. I truly want to recover and am willing to look a food in order to avoid the purging. Eventually it will feel natural but not yet.
So here I am re-committing again. I am going to digest everything i imbibe or eat. I love not messing up the kitchen with the bulimia storm and I love not needing to go to the damn grocery store.
Yeeeesss

It's hump day or Wednesday here in my world. I feel like I may have gotten over a bit of a hump with purging. I am so proud to waking up sans the guilt of a bulimia party at my house. I am going to keep it up today. I so appreciate the positive tone of everyone's posts here on this site. It's definitely not a pity party around here, just honest people sharing what is working and what they are struggling with.
May you all see the light that dwells within you today, and may you let that light not the darkness guide your way on.

You should be so proud of the steps your making, I've made it through day one, it was crazy difficult but I did it. Thanks for your inspiration!

Ray of Hope

Off to school...but had to say..Yay for Ray!! One day is awesome...