Do you know why you started having bulimia? The first thing ive notice is the cycle, correct me if im wrong, when youhave a partner around you its goes and when you are left alone its comes back?

If you want to get better you need to be ready to change and figure out whatmakes you do it. maybe the feelings of being alone? You have a chance to get help from your roomate if he or she is willing to helpyou and explain to you how they got out of it.

The cycle of thought is not easy to break, and you have to be strong and I and anyone else on this site is here to support you. You might not want to tell us why this whole thing start but you can write it down in a journal, write down what you eat, he calories, the highs and lows of your day.

I really really encourage you to seek professional help, your doctor, a dietitien, a social worker, a psychologist anything you need do it, you are worth it.
Keep me posted!

Getting help is always a good start. For me, prozac has helped me get a handle on the anxiety. My bulimia involves a panicky urge to eat to cover up the fear/loneliness then, by throwing up, I feel such relief its like a tranquilizer. In other words, I've been using foods to medicate myself. Keep coming to this site to talk and listen. Someone will have something to say that will resonate with you, get you headed in the right direction. Much love!

I guess I don't like being alone, as well as the immense fear that I'm going to gain weight. I know I do better when I'm working out a lot because I know I'll burn the calories off. I'm a full-time student who also works so sometimes getting to the gym is hard, and that's had an effect moreso this semester than in past ones. I have tried anti-anxiety medicine and it didn't end very well for me. To be honest I don't know why the whole thing started, and I think that's one of the biggest problems. I started losing weight when I came to college and I had access to a gym. I went from 165lbs to about 140lbs, by hard work at the gym alone, and then all the sudden, I just ate too much one day, felt over stuffed, and went to throw it up because I just HURT I was so full (I guess I hadn't realized my belly shrunk with all my hard work), and I felt better. So the next time I overate, I did the same thing. And then it started to turn emotional, with a break up looming over my head. I don't know why I do it so I don't know how to stop. I just don't want to get fat. But I know there is more to it than that.